More women are employed by the sex industry than at any other time in history.
Between 66-90% of women in the sex industry were sexually abused as children.
Compared to the general population, women in the sex industry experience higher rates of Substance Abuse Issues, Rape and Violent Assault, Sexually Transmitted Diseases, Domestic Violence, Depression, and Post Traumatic Stress Disorder. The women in this industry face a myriad of issues that impact their physical, emotional, and spiritual well-being. This Book is "Danielle's Story"!

Based on a true story of a youthful woman winning the race to rise above poverty, drugs and the sex industry's illusion of abundance, while being a single mom in South Texas.
A childhood victim of kidnaping, sexual and physical abuse, Satanic Ritual Abuse, rape trauma syndrome and childhood arrested development. Her personal adventitious, courageous struggle to advance beyond hopelessness. Her discovery of unnoticed, mysterious, ancient supernatural secrets with which to break the chains of misery. A personal journey of self-metamorphosis, rising to a higher state of beauty, in good, breaking free from  "worldly captivity," and "Bondage" to freedom.

"When our eyes first meet on that late January, 2005 night. As you stood behind that bar, I saw you as you were in the future. "As you could be." But then I traveled back to the present, the here and "now" in that very moment, but somehow? Knowing your "love"  in the future. One cannot move to the future with any bases in the past. Only the noëtic human mind can travel in the future, "to create" using the primacy of the Noösphere.
Rick utilizing the future, so to manifest in Danielle, a "strategic alternative", led her to his hotel window, letting Danielle see her future, as he said;  look at all the car's going by. He continued by saying, see all those people in them? Well, none of them are special, their just not, I am sorry, no' not one person. Only you are special, Danielle. Well? Why daddy, why me? "Ah" I guess? Rick replied, "Princess, maybe, just maybe? God, did tell me that."  He looked into her eyes, saying "You see bright eyes, you might say, "the extraordinarily gifted seed of the Universe is in you." The eye hath not seen, nor ear heard, neither have entered into the heart of man, the things which God hath prepared for them that love him.  You see, Danielle. "One day you will take His hand."

One warm fall afternoon in Deep South Texas, she burst into Rick's apartment, tears streaming from her eyes, hyperventilating.  "Trying to talk"  Rick with a look of fear on his face, his adrenaline pumping as he asked, what is wrong? A car accident? Danielle who was still trying to talk, yet could only hyperventilate that much more. Rick instantly held her tight for the longest time, then he loosened his hold on Danielle, just a bit and with his finger he wiped her tears saying," I can wipe away your tears for right now, but later He will wipe away your tears forever."

Your hand was shakin', my heart was breakin'    On that lonely night we said goodbye.
I knew it was over!   But as you touched my shoulder. And I saw that teardrop fall from your eye!
Now I sleep without you!  But, I dream about you!!!!!!
Nothing, can take that from Me!
A million years from now, you'll know, I'll still be loving you.
A million dream's from now, "I'll still be loveing you." 
Altho  I can't touch you!  I will always love you.  Now and forever!!!!!!!!!!!
A love that can't be explained, only Experienced.
Worldly so-called “love” is synthetic, demanding, selfish and conditional. Human beings are not merely sophisticated animals, that are doomed.
Possession is not proof of unconditional love, only disengagement from the five sense's can free the human spirit.

“The LORD is able to give you much more than this."
For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the LORD, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future. Then you will call on me and come and pray to me, and I will listen to you.
Do not be anxious about anything, but in every situation, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God.
In the beginning was the Word,(Jesus) and the Word was with God,(Jesus) and the Word was God(Jesus). The same was in the beginning with God. All things were made by Him; and without Him was not any thing made that was made.

I have been delivered and set free from the law of sin and death. For what the law could not do, in that it was weak through the flesh, God sending his own Son in the likeness of sinful flesh, and for sin, condemned sin in the flesh.
All things work together and are [fitting into a plan] for good to and for those who love God and are called according to [His] design and purpose. There is therefore now no condemnation to them which are in Christ Jesus, who walk not after the flesh, but after the Spirit. For the law of the Spirit of life in Christ Jesus hath made me free from the law of sin and death.
God put His seed, His DNA in you. (Genesis 1:26) If He can't be defeated; neither can you.


Danielle's and Rick's love was like a half Dollar. You can hardly find them these day's and when you do, they are far and few between. They have two sides. Danielle's love was all or nothing, but the camera loved Danielle, and she loved it back, but was she a slave to Rick's financial help?  Rick gave it all, but Rick's love was also all of her or nothing. He demand it all. Love shows itself in true action.
Sheol/hades is a realm with two divisions (Matthew 11:23, 16:18; Luke 10:15, 16:23; Acts 2:27-31), the abodes of the saved and the lost. The abode of the saved was called “paradise” and “Abraham's bosom.” The abodes of the saved and the lost are separated by a “great chasm” (Luke 16:26).

When Dad performed the Black Magic "Ceremonial" Ritual of Love and Romance, to have his Danielle back, to love him {2008}  The hoodoo Ritual, blood love spell, of occultism {2007} Then a radiant glow of attraction ascended. Seeds were planted to break the barriers of stubbornness, of bitterness, of blindness--and replace them with feelings of warmth and love. "Then within 7 days "Rick was in Danielle's arms." But, "Dad's spirit went momentarily to Hades for these acts, altho he was not dead!"

There is one such spiritual creature who is spoken of more than any other in the Bible. His activities as they affect our world are described more than those of any other angels or devils. In his own universe, he was once known as the Morning Star and the Son of the Dawn. His Latin name is Lucifer, the Light Bearer.  
"Satan" himself masquerades as an angel of light.

But the Lord was forgiving in {2010} He restored Rick's spirit back to him by His love, by natural endowment.
I have the same hope in God as these men themselves have, that there will be a resurrection of both the righteous and the wicked. From before Planet Earth even existed, Almighty God had been meticulously planning humanity’s salvation through His spotless Son’s sacrificial death.

Danielle would always have her Bible with her at all times, Rick thought that rather strange, for a stripper. So he would  talk to her about the blood of Christ. Danielle could site every verse in the Bible from memory, but she seemed to not understand that Christ died for our sins and they had been cleansed.

She would say  Exodus 21:24 Eye for eye, tooth for tooth, hand for hand, foot for foot.
And Rick not knowing much would think?????  "So he said to her."

Now let me tell you!!!!!

Matthew 5:38;39  Ye have heard that it hath been said, An eye for an eye, and a tooth for a tooth:
But I say unto you, That ye resist not evil: but whosoever shall smite thee on thy right cheek, turn to him the other also.
The law was added so that the trespass might increase. But where sin increased, grace increased all the more.

Danielle was in the kitchen when she heard Rick say that. She turned, with hate in her eyes and picked up her Bible and walked over to Rick and with fire in her voice saying:::Hey! Mr.  What is the difference between animals and Men and Women?

Rick looked at her, what babe?  What are you talking about? 
You sure don't know "asshole"!!!!    Well then I will tell you, Mr.    "God created Animals", Mr.      
But!!!!!!!!   God breathe life into Man.
God breathe His clean breath of love and sprit into them.!!!      By His kiss of life!!!    That is the difference.

Then God said, "Let us make man in our image, after our likeness." And the Lord God formed man out of the dust of the ground, and breathe into his nostrils the breath of life; and man became a living Sprit.
Daddy! I mean look around at the animals, they have had millions of years to evolve, but have they? No, they can't talk nor think beyond the next meal.Can they write books and such? No! Now look at the human creature. They do all that shit and more. They have consciousness, you know "morality" as well. Do you think that mother nature just put some amino acids, a few molecules, carboxylic acid, a carbon atom here and there plus some oxygen, a pinch of "Cayenne pepper" the "essential" to make it pop and "shazam" you have a human? I think not "asshole" No, it was God! He poured Himself in Jesus, but He also poured Himself in us, you and me. The spark that created the Universe, is in man. "Yea, and if I be offered the sufferings which he was likely yet to endure on their account, "humanity." He had labored for their salvation. He had exposed himself to peril that they and others might have the gospel. On their account he had suffered much; he had been made a prisoner at Rome; and there was a possibility, if not a probability, that his life might be a forfeit for his labors in their behalf.
You are such a Dork, Daddy. Rick added, but Danielle baby, what about judgement Day? Daddy, this goes beyond the five-sense's in the box, no, this is God. One solution or discovery, does not lead to the next question; the ultimate question provoked, is progress towards the absolute goal? Now, what does all this mean? Daddy. "Truth holds the supreme position in the order of things. Is it in sense perception? Well again no! Sovereign truth is not found in popular opinion, but in the creative processes of the individual human mind, all the time standing firm on the word of God.      

O that He would kiss me with the kisses of His mouth! For His love is better than wine,  His anointing oils are fragrant, His name is oil poured out for me. His lips, O Daddy they are as, a drop of honeycomb: honey and milk are under thy tongue; and the smell of thy garments is like the smell of Love, daddy God's plan is, when two people unite in marriage they become "one flesh" (Genesis 2:24)
Rick looking, again with jaw dropping amazement, "telling her, people get one verse and they make a Religion out of it". You take that one verse, what is it princess? Throwing her hands up, tilting her head, in a manner that Rick had seen before, which meant, her fur was standing up on the back of her neck, like a Wolf going to attack, a dark look cumin over her. It is Exodus 21:24 "Daddy" as tho you knew anything about the Bible! You see, babe, Rick told her, what you do is take that one passage from Exodus, making it a one verse theology, well then, you'll find yourself sitting on a deserted island somewhere drinking cool aid.    

She put her Bible down and got on Rick's lap. Rick asked her, "Why do you always carry that Bible with you?"
Because, Daddy, don't leave home without the oil of God.  Matthew 25:3   "Those who were foolish took their lamps and took no oil with them."   
Princess,  "What does that oil shit mean?"  He again asked
Well, Mr. Dork it is quite a mystery, is it not? I will tell you. A mystery is a mystery, till it is Solved.

Momma?, yes Daddy? We have the same Father, don't we? How is that daddy? It is God right? Well yes!
Then tell me, why do we have different mothers? We do?, Mr. Rick.
Yes, because your mother is the law. My mother is Grace.
Yea right, Mr. stupid!! Let me tell you, F**KER, you are just a Dork!  Daddy, did you know, that Satan is your father, when ya are born? Rick turning a bit red in the face, "Are you serious, Danielle?  Tell me then! Rick asked, "Why do you always carry that Bible with you, day and night"?  Why, I bet you even sleep with it.
Danielle mad as hell, Hey buster, why did the chicken cross the road? You need to quit driving thu my shit all day and just mind you own business, stay out of mine.

Do you love me Daddy?
Rick thinking he would play with her, said    Well, why should I ?
She looked at him with that quick remarkable kind of quirkee smile.
Daddy?  Yes Princess, what?  She put her index finger to her chin, looking off into space as if, thinking big thoughts. Looking right into Rick's eyes, announcing!  I know Daddy, just click your heals three times and we well be home.
Because love is not love till you give it away!   Trust is unconditional love,  Daddy, sin is just not trusting in the word of God.
Her head hung low resting on her chest, looking so sad. To Rick it was if she was in a time gone by,a place far,far away. Rick being both amazed and saddened by this, pulling her to him so very softly, kissing her gently on her forehead. Without moving her head, her brown eye's rolling upward to meet his hazel loving eye's. Rick immediately kneeling on one knee before her. Bowing his grayish brown haired head in front of her, speaking so softly. Princess, no my lovely Queen.  Dorothy and her friends realized love is within. Don't look any further than your own back yard, if it isn't there, you never really lost it to begin with! When your grandfather Rodriguez rescued you in Reynosa, then you were home. Now your knight, Rick has come to give you a heart. Hearts will never be practical until they can be made unbreakable.    I am here, Danielle, to let you know, "He" was sent to heal the brokenhearted. 
I know, daddy, you are my knight in shinning armorer. But, Daddy! I've lived around here for year's, as far as I can tell? This is a long ways from, "frickin Kansas"!          

Rick loved Danielle.  When they were first together {2005} he would bring his Laptop and play Mp3's on it while they would dance in his hotel room. One of the songs was RAY CHARLES  "Somewhere over the Rainbow", and out of the corner of his eyes, he would see a small tear in her eyes.

Danielle let out “ Oh good God Jesus” No!       
It has been so long and it feels so good.
Don't stop! Daddy. Don't stop!
She began to ride like a Jockey on the lead horse at the Preakness Stakes horse race.
She was strapped in, for a wining ride.


A few years later-----

One time she was over at my apartment in 2009 and I asked her “What's at the end of the rainbow? She just love fairy-tales. And right off she said, a pot of gold and I would grab that money and—I interrupt her and said “NO” that is a trick to deprive people of their gift! And she said: What gift Daddy? And I told her, you have to resist that, for the money is deceitful, evil and just brings hurt and you can not buy love for any amount of money. Why, you might even say it is a deception. Only God can provide love, you see "Satan" deceives you with money, for God's love is beyond the Gold and treasures of this Earth thru Jesus. To go on, past the pot of gold to find the truth in God's spirit in Jesus. 
This fools everyone and they fall short. If you resist that temptation knowing, that beyond is a gift from God that every living thing wants and that it is yours Free.

Her eyes and face had a look of question and a look of hope.–tell me she said?? what is it? “  Agape love, I smiled.
Agape is the highest form of love there is. This is an unconditional love for others in spite of their character flaws and weaknesses. It is a difficult love to obtain simply because we, as humans, are usually concerned more with ourselves and how the world and people around us affect us. It is "Unconditional love” and you can have that right now.  I'll Tell you Danille, you, The woman I love well never get old in my eyes. Rick then looked to her eyes for an answer.
She did not say anymore about that subject.

Within 15 minutes of her leaving a thunder storm came up on one side of town and my phone rang and it was her, she said hurry up! Look out your window. I looked out.     “ What do you see”
I answered, a rainbow!---Then she said “ It's our love” And she just hang up.

Rev. 4:2-3, 5-6.
"And immediately I was in the SPIRIT: and, behold, a THRONE was set in Heaven, and ONE sat on the THRONE. And HE that sat was to look upon like a Jasper and a Sardius stone: and there was a Rainbow round about the THRONE, in sight like unto an Emerald. . . . And out of the THRONE proceeded Lightnings and Thunderings and Voices; and there were Seven Lamps of Fire burning before the THRONE, which are the SEVEN SPIRITS OF GOD. And before the THRONE there was a Sea of Glass like unto crystal."

"And I saw another mighty angel come down from heaven, clothed with a cloud: and a rainbow was upon his head, and his face was as it were the sun, and his feet as pillars of fire."

The rainbow shall be in the cloud, and I will look on it to remember the everlasting covenant between God and every living creature of all flesh that is on the earth.”   Notice that the rainbow is primarily for God’s benefit, not ours.
The rainbow is God’s wedding band.  The rainbow means that God will not forget.


Christmas eve--2030---Tony was in the bathroom and Terri was checking the Turkey and of course Wayne was watching T.V
Terri yelled in from the kitchen-  Hey Wayne,  come here and help me with this turkey, please.
In a few minutes Wayne did not show up in the kitchen.  She thought to herself—I tell you at 47 years old and that Wayne still does not listen to me, Lord she said  Not were did I go wrong with that boy, but how many times did I go wrong” Then she just smile to herself.
Wayne yelled at his mom, Hey! There is some kid at the door!
Terri said, did you finely find out your not a kid?
Wayne said,  no mom: For real's.
Terri opened the door, the snow was falling heavily, in the security light looking as if every flake was made inside a big snow cone machine.
There was a very young boy at the door looking all covered with snow and kinda cold, his light jacket and all.
Can I help you?  Terri asked, Wayne right behind her.

Why,  Yes mam  “Maybe you can?
Are you the lady that wrote “My South Texas Whore?
Well,   Who are you?   Terri asked***********************        


Book to be out in 2014. The story of a man in the fall of his life and a young woman in the spring of hers. This very beautiful youthful woman was his "South Texas Whore!"

The man! A white Caucasian.                                              The woman! Asian Hispanic American

The love that was magic, a love of two places. As told by his daughter after his death.

Based on a true story of her life, love others just dream about. A love that no one can even conceptualize. More less, experience. A love that lasted a brief five years. Was so intense that it lasted for eternity!
The love of a whore!
A victim of kidnapping. Of childhood sexual abuse and a bisexual.
She was both exceptional, elusive and mysterious, with two personalities.  Secret love within her that no one knew of, till he fined the key! And then she surrender 36 years of suppressed up hope, passion, fear, shame and found unconditional love for Rick, but in the higher plane, for Jesus Christ, "she was set free by His love." By knowledge.
The man was old and alone. He was the last of the true romantics.  She looked at Rick with eyes of profound love, "Daddy? "I know only you and Jesus will ever love me." Rick with hurt in his heart, as he told her "yes," that is ture, but you have A and B mixed up. You see, first it will always be Jesus, "that is A" and then me, that is B. 
Rick held her so tight, yet so softly, oh Danielle my "only" love, as he was so sad, if I could just be the love of your life, I wish I could, but only Jesus is that man, for I well let you down. "He well not."
For I have seen the future, your future and I am not in it. Only you and Jesus are in love.

At the mall, her two kids with her she would go into Penney's dressed just right, hip hugging jeans, a low cut blouse,
just low enough to show her tattoo on her left breast.
She just knew she was beautiful and she showed it. Heads would turn when she walked by. Old women would talk, always blush, when she walked by. 
Danielle liked that. 

One of the male clerks at Penney's looked over at Danielle as he and another male were putting out merchandise and said, look at that hot one, dude!
Danielle's breasts pushed against her tight top, exposing the tiniest playboy tattoo on the swell of one breast. 

Oh, Yea!  I'd like to take that home, just for an hour!  Would I lay some pipe?
"What kind of kitty do you suppose lives under that skirt?
Yea me to, the dude answered, what the hell is she doing with that Bible, she's must be a Loco bitch, you know! 
Yea, you are right, Amigo     I bet she has Bible breath. 
I think, I would pass on that shit, she's not necessary playing with a full deck.
Yea, you are right, she is white trash, a redneck, and a bible thumper. ... I think it better you thump your wife.

""Estala could not anticipate how hot and horny both girls were getting""""

Behind her closed eyes Danielle watched a parade of male models, each one naked but for a fig leaf covering his modesty, engraved with his star sign. Starting with Aries, she made the men line up in front of her in her head, then gazed appreciatively as one by one they shed their leaves to reveal the astrological promise beneath. She got as far as Cancer, the fourth sign, before she came, her clitoris convulsing deliciously under the pressure of Estala's finger.

Then Danielle saw Rick and she did not know his star sign.
There he was, standing with all the male models, but he was so old and naked with a fig leaf covering his modesty, but the sign engraved on his leaf was $$$$$$$, and Danielle just smiled to herself. What a wonderful man.
Could it be genuine? she wondered as she allowed her mind to bring her round from her daydream.
Was there anything more than sheer hokum to the concept of compatibility based on money?
And if there is, what did it mean for her in her continuing search for the perfect partner, who had so far proved dramatically elusive?

Then as Danielle's mind cleared, she new what would be coming next, for Estala had the cat o' nine tails whip commonly called the cat, in her hand. 
 
With the setting of deep south Texas, 20 miles from Mexico {The Valley} this most passionate of love story's translated into love {Agape} that went farther than the end of the rainbow. Love went from hell to everlasting heaven.
A story of bank theft, of Criminal Felonies by both, the Texas Department of Criminal justice. A love that involved Sex, Drugs, lies, Jealousy, the love of Money, plus fear for thier lives.  In the name of true love. A love story that the reader can feel the manifestation of love in the air.  The ends, does not justify the means, but the truth lies in ture love.

Spans 100 years and 4 generations.

As the author: I hope you enjoy the book for it is everlasting love of two people. Love in which an hour together was a lifetime! For time favored their love, slowing and even freezing time forever!! --
Danielle told Rick "No matter what happens, I will always love you forever, for God Declaring the end from the beginning, and from ancient times the things that are not yet done, saying, My counsel shall stand, I will do all my pleasure". God created time for his pleasure, Rick and Danielle well be forever suspended in God's time. She looked at him, and with a little kiss on his forehead, she again said, " Daddy you see, we are just but slaves of time".
Rick looked at her in disbelief at what she had just said. And in a moment of thought he answered, Wow, that'll make your brain smoke.
O Daddy, if I could only have one wish.  I mean, really just one wish.  I would wish the unconditional love I have for you right now, could last forever.  Too hold you, look in your eyes, to touch your face, to see your tears and joy, as long as we live, but daddy I have to live in this real world.  My love well always be for you and you alone to the end of the millennium, no, beyond that. So daddy, I can only wish to love you, I can dream you are mine.   But I know I can never have you the way I dream. If I had that one wish, we would live out our fairy tales together in time, forever.
I pray for that, every minute to come true.  Daddy, I'm like a shooting star, I've come so far. I can't go back to where I used to be. You are the "only" reason for me to keep living,almost.
Rick pulled her to him,strongly kissing her, oh so very deeply, almost to the point of discomfort. He then whispered in her ear. Danielle, baby you are so romantic. I love that desire in you. No I'am not, Daddy. You produce that in me. She forcefully began kissing Rick, biting his lips in a animalistic way, then telling him. "When I leave your apartment, when I walk out that door, I am a different person". In another world, far from you. Danielle? Why do you see in me, what other's never did? You see me for what I am, not in a synthetic, demanding, selfish and conditional way, but in a good way, not blaming me (it's your fault) nor as "well if you, hadn't done this" or you "did that" to me. No! Danielle, you see me as I am.
I love you for that, sweetcake's. Why is that? Rick asked. Because, I am sugar and spice and everything nice that's what little girls are made of. Yes Daddy, when I look in your eyes, well?  Don't let this go to your head. I see...Well?  What do you see? He asked uneasily. Just your exceptional true love for me, Mr. Rick.    
He just looked at her as if in a trance.  Ouch!, he said. Now that shit, well for real, make your brain smoke, WOWZA!
Are you saying, if you are in for a Penny your in for a pound?  What does in for a Penny in for a pound mean, daddy?  Will princess, it means babe, if you are in for a little bit of shit, you might as well be in for the whole toilet. Looking at him with the uppermost love, that small devilish grin on her face again, daddy, figures don't lie, but, liars can figure. You know, daddy, as he run his fingers thou her hair, "you make love, out of nathin at all."

Novus ordo seclorum, daddy! What? Are you serious, Rick almost drooling on his lips, what does that mean, Danielle?  She sat down on the couch, seems, that's all Rick had to set on, in his apartment, sept a computer chair. Don't you have a Dollar? daddy.  Well, yea, why?  Look at the back of it, Rick dug one, out of his pocket. What's it say, baby?  Well, shit, "Novus ordo seclorum" Your a smart ass, miss, smarty pants, what's it mean?  She stood up, that lovely Asian smile of her's, right on her face  "A new order of the ages." that's what, daddy, "sweetie", "The Devil, is in the details."
Looking all that more, in love with Rick, she asked him "A penny for your thoughts, Daddy"

The times in our country--dreams, failures, hope and the law. Yes and even fairy tails. The feelings he had when she went back for the gold and looked away from his eyes.
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May God bless and El amor conquista todos--Mi amor

"There's a WHORE in every woman, but the right woman never unleashes it."

The promise that God made to Noah was the promise that the seed of the woman would in fact have a chance to crush the head of the serpent. Hope is reborn. And that is exactly what happened. Jesus Christ crushed the head of the serpent when He was raised from the dead, conquering sin and death.

For our struggle is not against human opponents, but against rulers, authorities, cosmic powers in the darkness around us, and evil spiritual forces in the heavenly realm.  Hate the sin, not the sinner.

Let us endeavor to copy the example of Christ, being unwearied in doing good, and deeming it more blessed to give than to receive. Luke 6:35 But love ye your enemies, and do good, and lend, hoping for nothing again; and your reward shall be great, and ye shall be the children of the Highest: for He is kind unto the unthankful and to the evil.

Refuse to excuse unforgiveness. We sometimes think, “you just don't know what they did to me”, but the truth is: God knows what WE did to HIM and He still forgives us. Let it go

God has sent us 66 love letters, it is called the Bible.  That's all it is but love, he was your first love and your last love!!!!  You don't need another persons love to be filled.  God's approval is all I need!!!   He love me---it is not! He love's me or he love's me not. The love of a woman or man will never satisfy only the love from God will satisfy. You see, that is our destiny.
Song of Solomon 7--The curves of your thighs are like jewels, Your navel is a rounded goblet; Your two breasts are like two fawns--Twins of a gazelle,Your neck is like an ivory tower, Your eyes like the pools in Heshbon By the gate of Bath Rabbim. Your nose is like the tower of Lebanon. Your head crowns you like Mount Carmel, And the hair of your head is like purple; A king is held captive by your tresses. The fragrance of your breath like apples, And the roof of your mouth like the best wine.   I love, with your delights!

In Danielle's vision, standing in front of the altar of the main cave, Merlin of Arthurian legend having authority by Pope Urban II as being high priest of the Christian crusades in the Holy City of Jerusalem, put his hands on Danielle's shoulders. "Damn it." Mr. Merlin, you are the oldest, ugliest hunched over man, I have ever seen, she told him.
Merlin began to twirl and turn, faster and faster till he looked to be a small tornado made of white. With a loud clap of thunder. Before her eyes stood a noble well-proportioned, youthful man so radiantly perfect, his skin glowed like a sun gleaming, he was unequally justified. Danielle now dressed in a 15th century European houpelande,hoop skirt with a petticoat. Her cleavage all but exposing Danielle's nipples, her 'little apples of paradise'. The apple signifies the sweet times that come naturally, or easily, but the honey signifies the sweet things that come from a struggle. The sting of a bee yet the fruit of the sting is the honey. Coming through a challenge with a sweet end. The clouds with the silver linings. These end up even sweeter than the things that come to us easily.......
A embroidered hat sat on her curly streaked light blonde hair. Danielle curtsied to her new prince, a gesture of respect or reverence made chiefly by women by bending the knees with one foot forward and lowering the body, to which he bowed one hand tucked to his wist.
With a curios cat grin on her face, Danielle asked "Who are you"? I am still, but that old man " Merlin" He leaned forward giving her a kiss. As their tongues touched she felt the juices running from her hoo-hoo. She put her arms around his waist, as she kissed him breathlessly. You are so handsome, so warm to the touch, your mouth is so sweet and pleasant. "Yet, this can not be, but a dream" Merlin knelt on his left knee in front of her " May God guide you on your journey, my lady". He stood back up putting his arms around her waist, kissing her so deeply. Danielle responded with her tongue finding every small drop of honey in the coroners of his mouth as she made numerous deep moaning sounds. Merlin then held Danielle away at arms length by the waist, putting his right hand gently to her forehead as she massaged his arm. He looked into her eyes with compassion and love, you have the power to obtain all the good things in your life that you desire, it is in the ancient book your grandfather gave you, when he first rescued you. Abruptly and unexpectedly giving her a forceful push backward with his hand. As she tumbled backward falling over her long 15th century clothes and shoes. Tumbling into a 15 foot circular well with a four foot wall around it. As she fell at ever increasing velocity, desperately trying to grab hold of small bushes along the inside wall, her dress rising over her head from the speed. With her dress over her head it made it impossible for her to see. Her dress ripping off as she watched it float upward from her as she continued to fall at even faster rates. She just knew she was dyeing as her petticoat tore off as well, leaving her totally naked. She began to lose conciseness at that point.

The world draws the heart from God; and the more the love of the world prevails, the more the love of God decays. The things of the world are classed according to the three ruling inclinations of depraved nature. 1. The lust of the flesh, of the body: wrong desires of the heart, the appetite of indulging all things that excite and inflame sensual pleasures. 2. The lust of the eyes: the eyes are delighted with riches and rich possessions; this is the lust of covetousness. 3. The pride of life: a vain man craves the grandeur and pomp of a vain-glorious life; this includes thirst after honor and applause. The things of the world quickly fade and die away; desire itself will ere long fail and cease, but holy affection is not like the lust that passes away. The love of God shall never fail.

Expecting sins to be repaid? They are forgiven. Instead, expect lost time & years to be repaid.  Joel 2:25 says, “I will repay you for the years the locusts have eaten...”

“At least there is hope for a tree: If it is cut down, it will sprout again,and its new shoots will not fail.
Its roots may grow old in the ground and its stump die in the soil, yet at the scent of water it will bud and put forth shoots like a plant. But a man dies and is laid low;he breathes his last and is no more.

And the LORD said to Moses, “Make a fiery serpent and set it on a pole, and everyone who is bitten, when he sees it, shall live.”   And as Moses lifted up the bronze snake on a pole in the wilderness, so the Son of Man must be lifted up.

A Christ-centered approach to building a relationship that will stand the test of time.

Trust in the LORD with all thine heart; and lean not unto thine own understanding.
Psalm 119:42 …for I trust in thy word.

And we are all become as one, unclean, and all our justices as the rag of a menstruous woman: and we have all fallen as a leaf, and in our iniquities, like the wind, have taken us away.

We cannot explain God’s love, and God’s love is unmerited.

I see you in Heaven?   I know you will be there. For the blood of Christ is calling you!!!!!!!             My Love

She jumped off Rick, on to the floor, as the queen sized bed made a soft sound in Rick's hotel room in late 2009. Hopping around the room nude like she was on a pogo stick, saying big c**k, best f**k ever, over and over, her lips curled in another smile, one whose secret I thought I knew. I recognized it without the aid of the gaze, now sealed forever from mine, with which it must of had come often from her very early childhood. It was the expression on her face when the shine of pride at successfully mastering her bicycle, when she gripping its vanquished horns, her first solo or the satisfaction of doing well on her homework, but this time the experience was not to be shared. Even without the eyes to help communicate it, there was a glow of the most intense concentration on her face.. Rick was amazed and a bit shocked.    Then she came and set on his lap, her big ass and all. She rested her head on his chest and he put his arm around her shoulder, like a mother bird would. Rick saying softly, Danielle honey, "Why haven't you talked much to me, sense you married me"?
She replied,"It is because, when I was a little girl my daddy did something that I couldn't never tell anyone, me seeing you in this hotel room, makes me,"well" "I feel like I" She just stopped talking, holding her head low. You mean a "Whore"? Rick asked. She said nothing. You mean after all these years, you just think, "I am a John" and you are a Whore?  "You know, "my Amor" when we look up at the heavens, I don't think you see what I do?" She took a long time to answer, saying "Do you think a woman can love two men at a time?" Yea, I guess she can, Rick replied. Reaching out, holding Rick's hand, she whispered in his ear. "I made them all but you pay." I love you.  What? A sorrowful frown on his face.  So Danielle, do you not talk to me, Mr. Rick, because you really don't want me to know, or you might show your true heart?  I have traveled the four Cornnors of this Country, to be with you. From California across to Washington, District of Columbia. Then off to North Carolina, ending in Tampa Florida. From the Rio Grande, East to west, Oh? and yes my dear, from North to South. From Ohio to the most southern tip of Texas. Does that mean nothing to you?  What did I do all that shit for? All I mean to you, is? I am a John?   "Danielle"?,  What,"Daddy", as she softly layed her head on his lap, nestling in his very bluish boxer shorts, "what Daddy"?  Well bright eyes, I love you so and I have tried gently these past five years to lead you in the right direction, for a healing, from your childhood. I have respected your fee will given you by God, plus considered your youth and your love for me, but, she put her index finger to his lips. No Daddy, I don't want to talk about it. Angel you have to hear this! Honey, without Jesus and God's word in your life, living on his word, we crumble. What is the real answer for a child that has been molested sexually? There is only one answer for that child, that is the healing that comes thou the touch of Jesus Christ. The disease of guilt, of condemnation, pain. The touch of a perverted man can be healed thou the touch of the healer, Jesus Christ. One man, named Jesus can fix any situation that any man has ever caused on this earth. He can heal you, redeem, restore you, give you a reason to live, wipe away the tears, shame, guilt, pain, not to mention the neglect abuse. One touch of Jesus hand, in your life, will heal you, can deliver, free you. You see, without Jesus we all well crumble, there is healing in His Wings. She give him a sheepish grin. That's nice Rick, but, "I kinda like the girls, a bit to much for that", so I'm not buying what your selling. What do you mean baby? He asked her. Daddy, I am really running late. I'm going to get a shower and go. Getting a towel from the closet, arching her back, she just accented her wonderer's light brown, big bare ass.  Rick thought for a moment, Danielle, it really is irrelevant about the girls. O.K. Looking at Rick, why is that? I mean, does it really matter if you like the girls, if you are not saved? Some people want to say, liking the girls is the worst sin of all, the unforgivable sin of homosexuality. Frankly it is irrelevant. It is not the girls that is going to send you to Hell, it is dyeing whit out Jesus Christ as your savior and Lord. Danielle, looking a bit confused at Rick, "powerful, powerful," Rick! Nice stained glass answer, "I mean", Rick, you are really bumping Heaven, now!  Can I ask you one question? Sure, butter cup, what?  Well Daddy,  "Who made you Holier than thou"?  I mean, have you invented the gospill, to cure all?  Now, I got to get my shower. Well you see, Danielle, theirs a problem. Daddy I'am running late. O.K. What is it? Well my love, I should have never meet up with you in the first place!
Looking at him with the most abandoned face. With her raised asian eyebrows, do you have a relationship with this Earth? Is that it, Daddy? For things of the Earth age and collapse and they dye. Is that all I mean to you? Well then Daddy, for the one who sows to his own flesh will from the flesh reap corruption.
That the righteousness of the law might be fulfilled in us, who walk not after the flesh, but after the Spirit.  For they that are after the flesh do mind the things of the flesh; but they that are after the Spirit the things of the Spirit.  For to be carnally minded is death; but to be spiritually minded is life and peace.  Because the carnal mind is enmity against God: for it is not subject to the law of God, neither indeed can be. So then they that are in the flesh cannot please God.
But ye are not in the flesh, but in the Spirit, if so be that the Spirit of God dwell in you. Now if any man have not the Spirit of Christ, he is none of his.  And if Christ be in you, the body is dead because of sin; but the Spirit is life because of righteousness.  But if the Spirit of him that raised up Jesus from the dead dwell in you, he that raised up Christ from the dead shall also quicken your mortal bodies by his Spirit that dwelleth in you. For we have not an high priest that cannot be touched with the feeling of our infirmities; but was in all points was like as we are, yet without sin.
Rick looking at Danielle with amazement, and shameful sorrow, a teardrop running down his check, saying to her, "my Lady" is it not funny, how we can see, other's falling short, as they betray us, but we do not see that in ourselves, in the mirror? My love? I see it is time for you to fly, in the clouds, all by yourself, without me now.  I took a chance and changed your way of life, but you misread my meaning, when I met you. Therefore farewell love, go trouble younger hearts. I can't light, no more of your darkness.
So, Daddy? You sure must be, "a tripin", are you singing "I'll flyaway?" Ha,  I mean, are you reading the tea leafs "now?"
Rick was quite now, not saying a word. Danielle then ask, "What? Are you now "Marty McFly"?"  Hun, daddy.

February, 2010---Estala, asked Danielle, Where is that old man, you know "Your Daddy" you have not mentioned him, for a while? You look so sad "Pumpkin"   I feel so sorry for you!  Where'd he go?
Danielle looking even sadder now.  He must have pulled another Irish goodbye, that bastard.
Now, Estala, everything that was good, is now bad.
I know, sweetheart. Well he was just an old schoolbag disenchanted with his life and trying to recapture his youth by f**king you anyway. I mean honey, your so called "daddy", was not the golden man of El Dorado, nor was he a "Conquistadors."  "I mean, we are not talking Spanish Gold here, Danielle."
Danielle, looking so inquisitively at Estala, seemly to be falling into a trance. Estala? Have you ever cared so much for someone that you feel that person should be set free to live life to the fullest. . . .because you think you may be holding that person back from things that may make that person happy, but then who are you to say what makes that person happy? All I want for this person, is this persons happiness, honestly I do!   Oh!  did I mention that im in love wit this person?  She reflected, but you can't turn back the hands of time, "I know that", but Estala, my darling bitch. Well our love stand the test of time?  Could this be, "The coming spider web, of the Dark One?"

Danielle looking very loused now, just rambling on. You know, I loved a lot of men, but I really only loved two, my father and one other. My father was an asshole, he for sure let me down. I'll get over this other bastard! Besides, I have been feeling very sick in the mornings and chocolate seems to be the only thing that helps me, Oh yea, a pickle every now and then.  Yea? Estala answered. Yes, Estala, Danielle thinking. The funny thing about dreams, they can take you more places than a starship can, but one can't cheat fate, a minute smile showing on her face. Are we not, Estala, but just chips in a game of unimaginable universes, of unspeakable wonder, of the God's? Between El Elyon {The Most High God} and Apollyon. “Then I heard a loud voice saying in heaven, ‘Now salvation, and strength, and the kingdom of our God, and the power of His Christ have come, for the accuser of our brethren, who accused them before our God day and night, has been cast down.’” Revelation 12:10  {Lucifer]  Looking into Estala's eye's, Danielle lost, but for Estala's love. She rested  her head in Estala's chest and breasts as she began to cry. Estala's stroking her wonderful long hair. Baby don't cry, you'll get over him in time. Ya know, the Son of the morning star comes huffing and puffing, blowing your house down, if you don't have a strong foundation.
Eatala? As Danielle opend her teary eyes, the windows to her soul, saying, the LORD God said: 'Behold, the man is become as one of us, to know good and evil, and now, lest he put forth his hand, and take also of the tree of life, and eat, and live forever.
"Once I was falling in love, now I'm only, falling apart"  Remember this, Danielle "Nothing can touch you unless God allows it, but what does the Ninth of Av, have to do with it?  If you are walking in obedience to Him and obeying the Lord Jesus Christ?" - remember that, Estala told her.
When God tells the truth, you accept it without question. When Satan tells the truth, some serious thinking is in order.
Moreover, you don't jeopardize the future, for a little convenience, right now. You see, baby, the miracle is not outside of you, but inside. Danielle, my sweet, "People don't like to ask how close the Devil's finger is to the trigger of the killer's gun." Danielle, now looking very sleepy, raising up her head, saying, darkness is confusion, but Estala "God has one more move." God makes everything beautiful, "in His time." Then Danielle moved even closer to Estala, giveing her a small kiss on the forehead. Saying, with a very quaint smile, Then there will be signs in the sun, moon, and stars; and there will be anguish on the earth among nations bewildered by the roaring sea and waves.  People will faint from fear and expectation of the things that are coming on the world, because the celestial powers will be shaken.
"And I saw a new heaven and a new earth, for the first heaven and the first earth were passed away; and there was no more sea." "God shall wipe away all tears from their eyes; and there shall be no more death, neither sorrow, nor crying, neither shall there be any more pain, for the former things are passed away." "And He that sat upon the throne said, Behold, I make all things new." Estala, I am so tried, let me sleep.  "Behold, the day is coming when He will show His strength on the mountains of Israel."   "The plan was set into motion long ago"
                          
   












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Societal Biases of Female Victims of Sexual Abuse

  If a female has a crush on the male who sexually assaults her, she may be blamed for seducing him, rather than the blame being placed where it belongs: on the offender.

  As with boys, if the girl's body has responded sexually, she feels she is somehow responsible for the sexual abuse.

  If the girl doesn't fight her abuser, she may be viewed as "liking it".

FACT: Female victims of sexual abuse often don't give struggle. Girls are still taught to be "nice" and many won't fight off an offender because of this perception. If a girl believes her abuser will become more violent if she fights, then often times, she will submit. If she does submit, cultural biases tend to put the blame on her as a willing participant.

  If the girl is promiscuous, she is often blamed for her sexualized behaviour, rather than seen as a legitimate victim of sexual abuse.

FACT: Promiscuity is one of many signs of sexual abuse, as well as one of many effects of sexual abuse.

  If a girl dresses in a provocative way, she may be seen as "asking for it".

  If a girl receives money for sex, she is less likely to be perceived as a victim.

  If a girl is well endowed, if she is voluptuous, if her body looks more mature than her years, or if she acts more mature than her years, society may see her as "looking older than she is" or "acting older than she is" and excuse the offender's behaviour, rather than recognize the girl has been sexually abused.

Regardless of how a child or adolescent responds to sexual advances, sexual abuse is NEVER the child's fault. Blame lies ENTIRELY with the offender.




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